29 May
29 May
29 May 1920
2 Portland Villas, Hampstead - London
Act I. Scene II. King Richard III.
Vouchsafe to wear this ring.
To take is not to give.
I don't want you to be other than yourself.
But if I am myself I won't do what you ask me to do... I feel it's forcing me. It's not me; it's not my geste. They looked at each other & for some reason they smiled - actually smiled.
I really & truly don't know what I want to do. Life isn't so simple as all that, you know ...
And the music went on, gay, soothing, reassuring. All will be well, said the music. Life is so easy - - so easy - why suffer ...
He shivered faintly & held up a paw - but he seemed to smile ...
But if you knew. I am looking out of a dark dark net. It is only accident that it's I sitting beside him. This is the music where the elephants come in & drink out of bottles. The clown comes in & takes the bottles away & drinks himself. [KM Notebooks, undated]