27 September 1922

6 Pond Street, Hampstead, London

Dearest Father,
Just a note to inform you that for the first time, I think, I have drawn my next months allowance in advance. I hope you will not mind. My reason was this. I went off to have my first treatment by the London man here and it was, to put it mildly, not at all satisfactory. It seemed to me all the appliances were different and the whole thing was of so experimental a nature that it made one feel very uneasy. Ever since I have not been well. Unpleasant internal symptoms manifested themselves at once. And the long and the short of it is that feeling rather "skeered" I have decided to return to Paris at once and to go through with it there, on the spot by the true original X rayer who did me so much good before. It seems such folly and more to .spoil the ship for a ha'porth of tar, even though the ha'porth is an expensive one. So the faithful Ida and I shall go straight off on Monday, look for a cheaper hotel than last time and there I shall remain until I am pronounced cured and then I shall wing my way to the South while the winter lasts. What an upheaval! But you know the very unpleasant feeling it is to be experimented on, for that is what the London treatment came to. The radiologist was most kind and anxious to do his best but there it was - he didn't know the exact spot even, it seemed to me, and I'm sure he started wandering blue rays in my liver. A great bother! [To Harold Beauchamp, 30 September 1922.]