17 May 1921

17 May 1921

Hotel Beau Site, Clarens-Montreux, Switzerland

Monday.
My darling,
I feel certain this letter from Father contains that Blow I am always expecting. Will you open it & read it & wire me what result? That sounds extravagant but you know the feeling? Ive got it v. strong this morning. Perhaps I ought to cable Pa. I don’t know. I suppose you couldn’t write a line just to report? To say what old Stephani said (1) There is still hope provided I have no more fever and provided I can get strong enough to stand treatment.
Those are the unblushing facts.
I havent heard from you today yet. I expect Ill hear by the afternoon post. Don’t know what it is Bogey but I have never loved you as I love you now.
This must be our Indian summer, I think.
I send you my love. It is safe with you & you will send it back to me. I know it won’t be lost. Keep it, dearest dearest Hert.
Tig.
Dont spare me any of Pa’s letter. I can hear anything from you.

[To John Middleton Murry in Collected Letters, 16 May.]